Readings that have helped yours truly cope with her losses...
When Bad Things Happen to Good People, by Harold S. Kushner.
When Living Hurts, by Sol Gordon.
Man's Search for Meaning, by Viktor E. Frankl.
Necessary Losses, by Judith Viorst.
How to Go On Living When Someone You Love Dies, by Therese Rando.
Perhaps, as you meander through this time without your loved one, trying to find meaning or purpose in your life, you might find comfort and increased joy in living by joining others in a support group, talking with a clergyperson, working with a grief specialist, or reading an inspirational book. Just a thought.